Monday, March 31, 2014

I quit my job.

After 5 years of working at a wonderful company, I decided that it was time for me to move on. I started applying at places and less than 3 weeks later, it was my last day. The lovely people I work with gave me new things for my desk and lots and lots of sugar to celebrate my last day. I exchanged phone numbers and hugs, turned in my id and key, then left. I was sitting in my car and it hit me - I can't go back in. If I had forgotten anything - chapstick, phone charger, headphones - I was just out of luck.

I went home and had the weekend to let it all settle in. Rachael and Leah went out with me to get pasta and drinks, to celebrate. I knew that I was making a huge decision, but it didn't really feel like it. I woke up Monday morning and used my print out directions to get me to Oklahoma City. I took highways I've probably only taken once in my life before. The first day was spent filling out paperwork, learning about my new company, and getting to know the two girls and supervisor I would be training with.

The week went by well and I was surprised at how much I had learned in such a short amount of time. Some of the team invited the three of us newbies to lunch and we all happily accepted. It was nice to hear a little bit of a more personal angle on the department. I am amazed at how much I now know about ostomies and stomas. It didn't hurt that we got free Auntie Anne's pretzels at the end of our first week either!

Now, it's the first day of my second week and I'm feeling pretty confident about this job. I have yet to be on the phone, I have yet to do anything that I will actually be doing when I start working, but I'm here. I made it. I let go of my safety net of 5 years and fell and tumbled into another one. I miss my team, I miss going to lunch with Kristina, I miss walking around the parking lot and seeing the geese, but I'm so glad that I leapt.

The next couples of months are going to be hard I know: adjusting to a new position and the hardships I forsee with the inconsistency of my pay for a while, but I also know that it will be worth it. At the very very least, I took a chance. I'm proving to myself that I can do all of the things. And if along the way I get some free t-shirts and McAlister's for lunch, I'd say that's a pretty good deal.

And in the meantime, I'm going to take this month to abstain from things that make me unhappy or unproductive. This week it is TV/Movies. Let's see how that goes :)

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