Thursday, June 19, 2014

Growing, changing, turning 25.

So last night I was sitting at my desk at work at 6 pm eating a banana, sweating from my post work-work out and trying to figure out what the hell was going to be the final thing on my 30 Before 30 List. I had 29 pretty solid ideas, but I couldn't possibly have a 29 before 30 list - that's so not right.

I've been struggling with this 30th task for about a week now. The rest of the list came so quickly and I've been getting frustrated. Then last night while sitting at my desk, I remembered what Myke had told me: Just leave it blank and when you do something really great write it in. I told him that would be my back up plan and kept struggling for that 30th thing. Then it hit me, last night while eating my banana: HE'S RIGHT!

Having a plan is very smart and I love having a list of things to do; however, some of the most exciting and fulfilling moments have been unplanned. So, instead of agonizing over that last slot on my list I decided to not leave it blank but make it LIVE TO THE FULLEST. It sounds vague and kind of like a cop out if you don't know me that well, but one of my biggest flaws is that I worry so much. I want to challenge myself this next year, my 25th, and the rest of my life to take chances and go with the flow.

I have gotten a lot better at this is the past few years and I'm proud of all the progress I've made. I'm working to stop looking back at my mistakes and just let myself live. I am working to stop apologizing for myself all the time and just accept my wants and needs at face value. I am working. And that's worthy enough to be on my list.

Also, I'll be posting my list tomorrow so be on the look out!

Until Next Time,
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