Tuesday, May 26, 2015


I've become a girl obsessed with being comfortable in her own skin. A big part of that for me is owning every adjective that I am. For the last few years when I describe myself, "fat" is one of the first adjectives I reach for. People sometimes recoil and ask me why I said that or try to dissuade me from using that word. "Fat" is one of the dirtiest words a girl can use.

I am reclaiming that word. Being fat once held so much shame for me. Fat used to be an all encompassing word in my life. My face is pretty, but I'm fat. I'm cute for a fat girl. I may not sexy ('cause I'm fat), but at least I'm a good kisser. I couldn't be anything more or less than that word.

Now when I describe myself fat is still in the mix. That's because I am fat. Aaaaaand moving on, I'm also stunning, hilarious, creative, kind, sexy, fashionable, smart, witty, sarcastic, fun loving, adventurous, and so so much more. An adjective I'm working on adding to my line up is healthy, another one of those controversial words. The reason why I want to work on being healthy is not specifically to lose weight, but because I love my body and I would like it to last. I want to treat my body as well as I treat my heart and mind. But that's a different blog. Something I've been doing lately is when I find myself focusing on my outside, I try to turn that inward. What can I do for my soul today? Sometimes that's writing, going for a walk, singing a song, dancing, laughing, or reading some news.

The main point is, there's no wrong way to have a body. You may be thin, thick, fat, flabby, firm, wobbly, jiggly, muscular, strong, heavy, light, solid. You are perfect. I do not care what you look like. I do not care if your skin is clear or your body svelt or where you buy your clothes. Are you happy? Are you loving? Are you free? Self love to me is loving what you've got - all of it. At every stage, phase, and age - love yourself. Your body is such a glorious thing. It recharges you while you sleep, it carries you throughout the day, it pumps your blood, it keeps you alive even when you're berating it and being cruel. Our bodies are such beautiful things.

Until Next Time,
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Tuesday, May 12, 2015

The Number One Way to Be Really Really Unhappy

Don't you just hate Mondays? I woke up with this busting headache. Then, I had to get ready so I don't look like a fugging zombie. I wish I was a guy and could just roll out of bed and put on a color variation of the one outfit I have. Then can you believe it? - It's raining! I hate getting my face wet and my hair is all messed up now. Then traffic was just horrible. Let's be honest, I hate driving. People who don't use their blinkers are really annoying. I forgot my breakfast and the girl at the drive thru was so judgey when I ordered. And I just realized my order is wrong anyway! Ugh I literally told her three times, no cheese. She was horrible. Can it just be Friday already? Now I have to sit here for 8 hours- wait, wait! Where are you going?

Don't stop reading my blog! I'm trying to prove a thing!

If you want to be incredibly unhappy, you should complain all the time.

We all have bad days, but I find that a lot of the time (not all of the time) we attract what we're putting out into the world. When I change the tape in my head and choose to focus on the positive, my day seems to end up going a lot better. When I choose to let the good things take a hold of me I create more, love more, do more. I feel happier.

I'm gonna take a pretty bold stance here. I was talking with my wifey Leah last night and she agrees with me, so no matter what I'll have her. Okay, here it comes...

I hate haters.

BAM! Take that world of negativity!

Now, to shake that off and start focusing on the good stuff in my life.
Until Next Time,
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Thursday, May 7, 2015


I was simply gagging over some of the fashion this year at the Met Gala! Obviously, I do not own ANY of these photos, I was not lucky enough to see these goddesses in person!

The theme was China: Through the Looking Glass.

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Tuesday, May 5, 2015

My Face

I've never been a fan of a lot of face makeup. I think it's weird when it covers my freckles and also I don't really know what I'm doing. Usually I do brows, eyes, and lips (sometimes). I also don't like the red undertones of my skin so I took the plunge and did some research and headed to Ulta. Apparently with freckles you need light coverage and lots of blending. I'm not good at blending my face is what I've realized. That dang bronzer just leaves a weird line.

Here's my before and after photos using Myke's fancy camera.

Here's my before and after photos using my IPhone 5S.

On my face
  • L'Oreal Magic Lumi - Illuminating Face Primer
  • NYX CC Creme Color Correcting
  • Loreal Visible Lift CC Cream Light/Medium
  • Maybelline Instage Age Rewind Eraser Treatment in 120 Creamy Ivory
  • Neutrogena Healthy Skin Custom Glow blush and bronzer in Natural Glow
  • NYX HD Finishing Powder in Banana
 On my brows
  • Benefit Instant Eye Brow Pencil in Light
  • Maybelline Brow Drama - Transparent
 On my eyes
  • NYX Eyeshadow Base in Skintone
  • Urban Decay - Oz the Great and Powerful Glinda pallet
    • Colors -  Illusion and South
  • Urban Decay eyeshadow in Sin
  • Bare Mineral - The Escape Pallet - Daydream and Wanderlust
  • L'Oreal Infallibale BlackBuster liquid eyeliner
  • L'Oreal Volume Mascara - Miss Manga in black

I'm really pleased with the overall look of this. Putting the face makeup on didn't really even take any extra time in the morning. As aforementioned, the thing I need to work on is my blending of my "contour" and blush. I can tell the difference more in the selfies than in the pictures Myke took which I thought was interesting, but I guess good lighting and photographer can make all the difference!

What do you guys put on your faces? As you can tell, I like to keep my makeup pretty cheap but would splurge on a good product!

Until Next Time,
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