Monday, November 30, 2015

November Favorites

I want to start sharing my favorites like Oprah except once a month and I can't give you free things of everything so more like.. well, almost every YouTuber and blogger out there. Much like my blog, I have no real focus so it's just going to be things I love every month.

Aladdin Water Bottle

  • I found this at TJMaxx and it's one of my favorite beverage purchases. The top opens like a regular bottle, but the fat part in the upper middle opens as well for easy water and ice pourage.

Starbucks Peppermint Mocha Frappachino

  • I look forward to these every year. As you know, I am solidly team peppermint and this is the tops of all peppermint for me.

Sparitual Nail Polish in Sage Creme

  • My wifey actually found this gem. I was looking for a "greige" and this was the exact hue I was searching to find. I did two thin coats; it dried fast and even. I will definitely be trying this brand in the future.

Turbie Twists

  • Forever a favorite, but not the microfiber ones, those are garbage. Also, Myke got me these adorable pink ones with hearts on them so...


  • Tiger Pumpkins and gourds plus the flowers that Myke D got me right before he left at the beginning of November.

Not my picture, Citrus Ginger BellaVitano Sartori cheese.

  • Honestly, I feel in love with the Rum Runner, but they don't have that here in Minnesota. Sooo I tried the Citrus Ginger and it's heaven as well. Myke also reminded me that we've had the raspberry and it's really good also.

Did you guys find anything that jumped out to you this month that I need to know about?

Until Next Time,
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Monday, November 23, 2015

Myke's Back!

So, Myke D is officially back after being gone for 22 days. If you all remember, in August he left for two weeks and it was the worst. Just kidding, this was worse. I think I forgot to mention, his birthday was 12 days in to us being separated. Also, I couldn't find his present in the hectic packing so... he just got a card from me. The worst.

Now, I know some of you with amazing partners have gone much longer without seeing your (wo)man; however, this is not the life I signed up for. He is a photographer and not for National Geographic. I was sure once we moved in together the longest I would go without seeing him was maybe a weekend. My anxiety and depression were not ready for this blow. The first week he was gone I didn't shower. This is the first time I'm admitting that. I washed my face and my hairdresser washed my hair during the middle of the week when I got it cut, but I didn't wash my body for seven days. When I finally did, I didn't feel any kind of release being clean. It just felt like a thing I was supposed to do. In the following weeks, I have taken better care of myself. If you have any degree of depression you know that sometimes just showing up feels like something that should be applauded.

Now, don't get twisted - it's not like he completes me or I need him to be okay. My depression has always been at high risk when I'm alone. When I lived with my parents and Leah, I had my own room that I could go to and it was the same type of environment for me. When no one's really focused in on the little stuff (like when I showered last) I find myself sinking into the depression. It used to be worse on long weekends or breaks. Also, this isn't like he's gone for three weeks and then everything's back to normal. We're packing up our lives. I'm leaving behind everything I've ever known. He's back for 5 days and then I'm gone too.

Why am I telling you all of this? Well, I'm fucking tired of pretending to be okay when I'm not. I've spent too many years (since I was 15 at least) saying "I'm fine" and "it's okay" when it wasn't and I wasn't. I wouldn't be embarrassed to tell you I had a cold, but that I would lie lie lie my feelings. When I first started being honest and transparent about my depression and anxiety, some people told me I was being "over dramatic" or trying to get attention. Then I stopped caring about making other people comfortable. I decided that I didn't need to censor myself or my emotions for others.

Sometimes I just feel heavy. I feel a weight of self doubt and hatred that I can't slough off. I am strong enough and familiar enough now to know it's my mind playing tricks on me. I can tell when the irrational thoughts are taking over. I know I will out on the other side. I know that I am loved and that I am worthy of love. I know this things, but sometimes they're hard to believe. Sometimes it's all I can do to get dressed and leave the house. I push myself very hard to do simple things at times. But some nights I have to just give in when the demons are loud and the clouds are thick.

A few positive things did come out of Myke being gone. Every morning when I woke up, I could turn on every light and play music and just not be considerate. I marathoned a lot of silly girl shows like Maddie & Liv, Girl Meets World, and Young & Hungry. I could stop in the middle of a show and take a shower or a selfie. I could eat whatever I wanted whenever I wanted, which has been a lot of carbs and sugar. I worked until six a couple times and it was fine 'cause I didn't have anyone to go home to. I've blogged a lot more. I've written a lot more in general. I hung out with my mom every Saturday since he left. I've seen my cousins and my wifey once a week at least.

But I've been cold and unsnuggled with absolutely no way to take a good OOTD picture and I'm so glad to have him back. Now, we move on to packing, cleaning, and moving to Minnesota. The next time I post it will be after Thanksgiving and I will be officially transplanted.

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Until Next Time,
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Thursday, November 19, 2015

Team Peppermint

We are in November which is that after Halloween/pre-Christmas season transitional. Thanksgiving is one of my absolute favorite holidays, but we all know that November is traditionally the time when you can indulge in both your pumpkin and your peppermint delights. I asked you all which team you were on and here's the results.

Team Pumpkin - 7
Team Peppermint - 3
Team Salted Caramel (write in) - 2

I am personally Team Peppermint.

Here's what I like that's pumpkin, since you're reading this and you care: pumpkin cheesecake F'Real, pumpkin cheesecake, pumpkin pie, pumpkin cream cheese muffin, and pumpkin Hershey Kisses.

That's it. I also like live pumpkins especially tiger pumpkins. They are also fun to make jack-o-lanterns with and are good for general autumn decor.

Now, let's talk about peppermint. We'll start with edibles and move on.

Peppermint Mocha Frappachinos. I should be able to rest my case there. I know you will expect more from me though so we'll continue. Peppermint hot chocolate, peppermint white mocha espressso, peppermint Hershey Kisses, any chocolate with peppermint candy, peppermint ice cream, candy canes, peppermint brownies pops (pictured above), peppermint cheesecake, peppermint bark, peppermint fudge, peppermint popcorn bark, shall I continue? The marriage of chocolate and peppermint is a match made in the heavens.

Moving on to decor: you can melt peppermints together in the oven to make a circular tray to put your cheesecake on! Also, candy canes on a Christmas tree or in a mug on your desk are a simple and classic decoration! The classic red and white peppermint colors are a staple in any Christmas/holiday decorations. Most winter scenes feature a little polar bear eating a candy cane or a feisty penguin fencing with one. There's even mailboxes with the little peppermint circles!

Basically, I'm peppermint obsessed. Which team are you on?

Until Next Time,
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Monday, November 16, 2015

Fall 2015 Look Book PART TWO

In honor of my favorite season I did a look book a few weeks a go HERE. I had such a blast sharing my style with you, I wanted to do a few more looks! Luckily, the love of my life is very agreeable to helping me out. We only squeezed in these two before he left, but I have many more Look Books in mind!

Look 1
Jeans - Forever 21
Long Sleeve Tee - Old Navy
Flannel Button Up Dress - Forever 21
Boots - Target
Necklace - Forever 21

This outfit has been a staple idea of my fall wardrobe. Boots, jeans rolled up, long sleeve tee, and lots of fun flourishes - flannel dress worn as a vest, kissing couple necklace, Mel B koala hair.
Look 2
Long Sleeve Tee - Old Navy
Skirt - Forever 21
Boots - Ross
Necklace - Vintage Avon
Rings - Forever 21, Vintage, Claires
Lipstick - NYX

While black is a staple of my wardrobe, I haven't worn all black since I was about fifteen. It was kind of fun to don the "fashionable" monochrome look and I felt pretty mysterious with my dark lips. I really like how this outfit turned out, but at the time I was definitely thinking - Is this boring? I found that my heart goes to that pop of color or print in almost all my outfits. Lady is not a vamp.

Until Next Time,
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Thursday, November 12, 2015

Behind the Selfie

There's a lot of talk these past few weeks especially about the falsity of social media. This is part due to Essena O'Neill, the 19 year old Instagram model who made a statement quitting Instagram and posting the truth behind all of his popular photos. I've heard some people discussing how "of course it's not real". I found myself in this camp. As someone who blogs, who posts OOTDs on Instagram, I know how many shots are taken vs how many I actually post. I know how I stand awkwardly to get the look I want. Then, I remembered 16 year old me combing through Vogue and People. I remember thinking I couldn't wait to grow up and figure out how to add volume to my hair and have perfect skin.

Now, I'm 26 and I know that to add more volume to my hair I either need to add fake hair in or tease the hell of it. I choose to do neither because I'm lazy. I now know that to have perfect skin in every picture I can photo shop out that random pimple or red spot. I know how to appear flawless if I so choose like the girls in the magazines, but I also know that's that perfection is not reality for anyone. Even when I think of my most beloved girl crush, I know I can find those "They're just like us!" pictures if I search hard enough. Honestly, I don't care about that stuff anymore. I'm more interested in what these women have to say, what they have to share.

That 16 year old me though; I still remember the toxic way she thought. I love posting a good lighted selfie on a good makeup day to Instagram - y'all know. I also think it's important for us to be transparent about the other side of it as well. My friends know that I don't always have my makeup on, my hair done. My family knows too. But just maybe there's a 16 year following me. And just maybe she thinks I'm always on. This post is for that girl.

Here's a selfie I posted to Instagram last week after I got my hair done.
Here's outside the frame: I'm holding my hair to give the appearance of more volume and so it looks fuller in the square picture.
Everything in life is more than meets the eye. You don't know what's going on behind the camera or either side of the picture. Same for real life. Someone may seem cheerful and easy going, but be having such a struggle at home. Never take things at face value. It's toxic to compare yourself to anyone. Hell, sometimes it's toxic for me to compare myself to my own selfie!

Until Next Time,
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Monday, November 9, 2015

Adventure Awaits

I have so many new projects coming up that I'm very excited to share with y'all! A YouTube vlog, a newsletter that goes straight to your email, and of course new blog posts. I want you to be all up in my life and I want to make that as easy as possible. So, as always, my About Me page is constantly being updated as currently as possible AND I decided to make this post a little update as well.

I present to you my very first vlog and if you're interested, here's my vlog playlist on YouTube: HERE 

Here's where you can sign up for my newsletter which will debut in December featuring exclusive content and stories never before shared. It will range from poems to old dating stories to just whatever the hell I want.


And here's my four favorite blogs of my own right now:
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Now, is there any content specifically that you'd like to see more of from me? Body positivity as it relates to something, fashion, personal stories, or advice are some things I've heard before. PLEASE leave your suggestions below or contact me privately to let me know!

Until Next Time,
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Monday, November 2, 2015

Bibbidi Bobbidi BOO

For Halloween 2015, I went as Cinderella! Here she is...
Once again, as you saw in my throwback Halloween Thursday, this year I pieced together my costume from a few different places. Dress from Modcloth, wig from Ebay, "glass" slippers from Amazon, earrings from Walmart, headband from Forever 21. The wig was probably the most complicated part of my costume. I had to trim the bangs which was a huge disaster. It was also not quite big enough for my head, so you can see some of the brown hair by my ears and definitely the back was a mess. Of course, we're always our biggest critics. I only received compliments from my wonderful friends and coworkers.

Of course I had to make the rounds around the office for selfies and group pics!
The Spice Girls
Villains of Gotham
All the Single Ladies
The whole group together!

Until Next Time,

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